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Honestly I think Im too autistic for dating , and I don't really desire a relationship.Truthfully I have never felt love in my life , but I was infatuated with the blackpill enough to give it a try . Such a conversation gave me a different perspective in life and on how human nature is. I think we are inherently built to want to spread genes and the inability to do so causes the body to go into a desperation mode to reproduce. In a sense I think we as humans cannot be fulfilled or happy in life without spreading our genes which is ultimately our goal in life. This realization allowed me to see the importance of the blackpill and how it effects men and by extension me. Though I do not feel the effects now , I believe I will draw into extreme regret in my future for missing out of vital moments of the human condition. I believe I can only be content with my inceldom up to a point in-which it will become crippling. But that leaves me at the peak of my "journey" so to speak If i give up i will inevitably live with the unending regret of my decisions but ill be happier and in a much better state, but if I continue I will sacrifice my short term happiness and financial stability , for a long term goal I most likely won't even achieve , which might make me feel worse than having the regret. I guess its the age old question of would you rather live in regret ,or experience your failures firsthand.
 

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We're not that likable, I feel you on the regret part, personally many things were stolen from me in youth and I will never get those back. All you got is what you can act upon, your never getting those moments back. As to the black pill in its basic principles it has merit and has a point, after all many people are LIVING EXAMPLES of it. In the end all you have is to reflect and to understand your situation. No use in getting lower in the thoughts hierarchy, so do what you can thirty-chan.
 

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Honestly I think Im too autistic for dating , and I don't really desire a relationship.Truthfully I have never felt love in my life , but I was infatuated with the blackpill enough to give it a try . Such a conversation gave me a different perspective in life and on how human nature is. I think we are inherently built to want to spread genes and the inability to do so causes the body to go into a desperation mode to reproduce. In a sense I think we as humans cannot be fulfilled or happy in life without spreading our genes which is ultimately our goal in life. This realization allowed me to see the importance of the blackpill and how it effects men and by extension me. Though I do not feel the effects now , I believe I will draw into extreme regret in my future for missing out of vital moments of the human condition. I believe I can only be content with my inceldom up to a point in-which it will become crippling. But that leaves me at the peak of my "journey" so to speak If i give up i will inevitably live with the unending regret of my decisions but ill be happier and in a much better state, but if I continue I will sacrifice my short term happiness and financial stability , for a long term goal I most likely won't even achieve , which might make me feel worse than having the regret. I guess its the age old question of would you rather live in regret ,or experience your failures firsthand.
No offense my brother but you're only like 18, I didn't even kiss a girl until 18, let alone didn't get laid until 22. Imo you can only say it's truly over for you when you're like 30 or something as tbh you still have a shot and time to work on yourself, especially at an age as young as yours.
 
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Honestly I think Im too autistic for dating , and I don't really desire a relationship.Truthfully I have never felt love in my life , but I was infatuated with the blackpill enough to give it a try . Such a conversation gave me a different perspective in life and on how human nature is. I think we are inherently built to want to spread genes and the inability to do so causes the body to go into a desperation mode to reproduce. In a sense I think we as humans cannot be fulfilled or happy in life without spreading our genes which is ultimately our goal in life. This realization allowed me to see the importance of the blackpill and how it effects men and by extension me. Though I do not feel the effects now , I believe I will draw into extreme regret in my future for missing out of vital moments of the human condition. I believe I can only be content with my inceldom up to a point in-which it will become crippling. But that leaves me at the peak of my "journey" so to speak If i give up i will inevitably live with the unending regret of my decisions but ill be happier and in a much better state, but if I continue I will sacrifice my short term happiness and financial stability , for a long term goal I most likely won't even achieve , which might make me feel worse than having the regret. I guess its the age old question of would you rather live in regret ,or experience your failures firsthand.

Honestly bro, you might just need to lower your expectations and try to find a way to adjust your attitude. If you constantly tell yourself you're going to be alone forever and are "too autistic for dating", you're kind of setting yourself up for failure.

Garbage in, garbage out.

If you aren't interested in "being in a relationship" right now, maybe just go for making friends? Your youth is the best time for this. I really doubt you're a net harm on society, so disconnecting yourself from society isn't going to benefit anyone. It will just hurt you now, and later. As you form friendships, some may lead to a romantic spark that wouldn't have happened otherwise. And if it doesn't, then you have friends to spend time with. A net positive either way.

How tall you are?
Honestly, I don't think height is as relevant as people make it seem. There are a number of women that do not care about height, or even prefer shorter men.

Thanks for reading. Sorry to hear you're going through this internal struggle. I hope you don't give up on forming relationships.
 

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Uh... self-improvement, sisters... what's our response?
Nah, but in all seriousness, bro, what do you mean it's over? I mean, unless you are literally on your deathbed, you can still turn shit around. Much of this line of thinking comes from focusing too much on the romance aspect of socialization. Do you even have people in your life who you can regularly go out and socialize with? If not, you should start by making friends, talking to people, and trial and erroring it until you feel comfortable socializing. It's hard work, though, especially if you've been a recluse for a while. Just don't give up and try.
When you said:
I think we are inherently built to want to spread genes and the inability to do so causes the body to go into a desperation mode to reproduce.
That's a turbo-autistic way of looking at shit that only comes with years of isolation and focusing on sex. Change your mindset and goals, and you'll start making progress. Also this:
If you constantly tell yourself you're going to be alone forever and are "too autistic for dating", you're kind of setting yourself up for failure.

Garbage in, garbage out.
 

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Honestly, I don't think height is as relevant as people make it seem. There are a number of women that do not care about height, or even prefer shorter men..
Height its one of the most relevant factors in the date market, at least for women when choose a men. Women usually have a hate towards short men. Besides height, race also is abother factor. But usually the principal factor is face
 

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Honestly I think Im too autistic for dating , and I don't really desire a relationship.Truthfully I have never felt love in my life , but I was infatuated with the blackpill enough to give it a try . Such a conversation gave me a different perspective in life and on how human nature is. I think we are inherently built to want to spread genes and the inability to do so causes the body to go into a desperation mode to reproduce. In a sense I think we as humans cannot be fulfilled or happy in life without spreading our genes which is ultimately our goal in life. This realization allowed me to see the importance of the blackpill and how it effects men and by extension me. Though I do not feel the effects now , I believe I will draw into extreme regret in my future for missing out of vital moments of the human condition. I believe I can only be content with my inceldom up to a point in-which it will become crippling. But that leaves me at the peak of my "journey" so to speak If i give up i will inevitably live with the unending regret of my decisions but ill be happier and in a much better state, but if I continue I will sacrifice my short term happiness and financial stability , for a long term goal I most likely won't even achieve , which might make me feel worse than having the regret. I guess its the age old question of would you rather live in regret ,or experience your failures firsthand.
>he's not even in his 20's and he thinks it's over

lmaoooo
Keep the blackpill copium up and you won't ever find anyone. Don't look for those 10/10 instagram models, because you're not one of them.
Be honest and realistic while looking for a partner. In my experience places like tinder / badoo / fb dating are the worst places to find someone. People there are either for hookups or really desperate.
Anno Domini 2023 (almost 2024). And still best way to find someone is to just go out. Sitting at home and reading blackpill (or any other for that matter) forums is not going to get you anywhere. Worst that can happen ? You will meet new people that share your interests.
 

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Don't look for those 10/10 instagram models, because you're not one of them.
Hur dur, lower your standard. In no moment op told to us that he only wants to date super hot girls.
 

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Hur dur, lower your standard. In no moment op told to us that he only wants to date super hot girls.
I think Bibr just meant be realistic in what you're looking for, that's all. Then again for all we know @ThirdyAughtSix could snag himself a looker, we'll see.

In the end Thirdy is just a really young fella, he shouldn't be worrying about it "being over" when he has literally just became an adult. However, these feelings are very understandable and he shouldn't be shamed by anyone for having them (no one here has but I'm saying in general) as becoming an adult is scary; you have way more responsibility, are expected to figure it all out for yourself, and especially as a man if you don't have good friends or a girlfriend good emotional support is hard to find. Quite frankly if you haven't grown quick enough you'll have a bad time as, for an example, I was an absolute mental wreck honestly in my late teens and early twenties, and really only in the last year have I personally sorted myself out and been happier than I've ever been. For Thirdy it may take him less or more time for him to find where he wants to be mentally, socially, etc, but yeah as having gone through this myself I totally relate to what he is preaching and I hope he finally makes it one day.
 

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There's no such thing as too autistic for dating. Remember, you are the median of all your ancestors genes and all of those retards got laid. Remember to be realistic about your options. I'm not saying to lower your standards, but different people want different things. Put yourself into the mind of your preferred partner. No one wants to date a fat, blackpilled, terminally online sad-sack. If you want a partner sometimes you have to improve yourself first.
 

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What's with young men and making losing your virginity by age 21 (it seems like) the end-all, be-all of a fulfilling life? Is it, like, a porn addiction thing? Did you watch too many teen/YA TV shows? Maybe its the fact that I'm a chick but you'll be the same retard before and after you stick your dick in someone's Arby's roast beef delux.
 

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What's with young men and making losing your virginity by age 21 (it seems like) the end-all, be-all of a fulfilling life? Is it, like, a porn addiction thing? Did you watch too many teen/YA TV shows? Maybe its the fact that I'm a chick but you'll be the same retard before and after you stick your dick in someone's Arby's roast beef delux.
I don't think a lot of chicks understand this, no offense to you ofc, but losing your virginity (without paying for it) is one of the most important rites of passage in a man's lives. It's what ultimately shows the world you're a man and have finally reached the stage where a girl out there genuinely found you attract enough to want to bang you, which biologically we are wired to want to happen. Men can cope with religion and chastity or whatever all they want, but the truth is men love sex, men love wooing over women, and men want to spread their genes, if they can't manage that then it will mentally fuck with them as it can end telling them they are not good enough to procreate, and longer they fail the deeper this sets in. There's a reason why almost all societies throughout the ages married their men off young as without sex and companionship a lot of men will just not want to work or contribute to society as ultimately sex drives us if we want to admit it or not, we are no different from bacteria in what we want do constantly, which is spread and multiply.

I know it's unhealthy to focus on sex and love too much, especially if you're a young man, but can you blame these youths when their brains are constantly are telling them they need to breed and fuck? Just a unfortunate circumstance of the human condition.
 

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Nah, but in all seriousness, bro, what do you mean it's over?
The title was basically a misnomer which was my fault , but basically the thread was made to show my feelings for a future I don't want but im biologically obligated to do, In which I explain im in a transition phase of being an autist to becoming normal and I don't want to transition into fully doing that because it would virtually destroy my entire personality , which I may have to sacrifice to fit into society and to prevent myself from regretting my life.The title was basically just a meme on how impactful the decision of fully dedicating my life to "normieism". My path can go two ways , I fail I am in debt and ultimately face the harsh reality of my decision , or I succeed and am able to get into or form a social group that can prevent me from having the "biological regret" I fear. The former is more likely than the latter but at this point I am most likely going to take the hard way anyway. Of course neither could happen and I stay autistic, gaslighting myself pretending my future is going to work out in the end , but deep down I know it won't . Of course being autistic and pretending everything is okay might be good for the time , I may be rich , and live a humble life , but I believe no being can be content with themself knowing they never impacted the world , even by simply reproducing.
 

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Honestly bro, you might just need to lower your expectations and try to find a way to adjust your attitude. If you constantly tell yourself you're going to be alone forever and are "too autistic for dating", you're kind of setting yourself up for failure.
I don't have any expectations at the moment , its simply not the point of the thread ,the point of the thread is to announce a tipping point in my life on how it can or can't go. And to hopefully get advice on what to do with it
 

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I don't think a lot of chicks understand this, no offense to you ofc, but losing your virginity (without paying for it) is one of the most important rites of passage in a man's lives. It's what ultimately shows the world you're a man and have finally reached the stage where a girl out there genuinely found you attract enough to want to bang you, which biologically we are wired to want to happen. Men can cope with religion and chastity or whatever all they want, but the truth is men love sex, men love conquering women, and men want to spread their genes, if they can't manage that then it will mentally fuck with them as it can end telling them they are not good enough to procreate, and longer they fail the deeper this sets in. There's a reason why almost all societies throughout the ages married their men off young as without sex and companionship a lot of men will just not want to work or contribute to society as ultimately sex drives us if we want to admit it or not, we are no different from bacteria in what we want do constantly, which is spread and multiply.

I know it's unhealthy to focus on sex and love too much, especially if you're a young man, but can you blame these youths when their brains are constantly are telling them they need to breed and fuck? Just a unfortunate circumstance of the human condition.
Holy fuck stop that
dude got his first time a month ago and already thinks he's at the top of the game.

Sex is fun and there's nothing more to it. Unfortunately for young guys it's presented as something life changing. Smth that's a must for a happy life.
dam. Imagine if social engeneering made running a marathon "something every male has to achieve to call himself a man"
 

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Holy fuck stop that
dude got his first time a month ago and already thinks he's at the top of the game.

Sex is fun and there's nothing more to it. Unfortunately for young guys it's presented as something life changing. Smth that's a must for a happy life.
dam. Imagine if social engeneering made running a marathon "something every male has to achieve to call himself a man"
Oh yeah don't get me wrong sex won't change everything and you'll still be same, and probably won't be happier neither but you've got to understand I'm only saying this from a societal perspective as frankly that's how it's seen. I do wish it was different but sadly this is seen as the main rite passage for many young guys.
 

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Honestly bro, you might just need to lower your expectations and try to find a way to adjust your attitude. If you constantly tell yourself you're going to be alone forever and are "too autistic for dating", you're kind of setting yourself up for failure.
This guy was just a teenager when he posted this photo, but just for his looks, it was the sufficient to be brand as a incel. People discover him because women in a facebook group are mocking his looks. Being young means nothing Blackops2cel_-_original_picture.png
 

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This guy was just a teenager when he posted this photo, but just for his looks, it was the sufficient to be brand as a incel. People discover him because women in a facebook group are mocking his looks. Being young means nothingView attachment 3138
There is nothing wrong with his looks, he just needs to chose a hair style and get a shower, skin and hair care routine down. I swear with some of you moids, its not even that you're unattractive naturally, some of you just don't know how to take care of yourselves. This is like the one time I recommend reddit for anything -- their subreddits on grooming are life savers.
 
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