Rant Life legitmately has not been worth living these past few months

[ThirdyAughtSix]

Im not suicidal and i don't really feel like killing myself but damn has the past few months been really fuckin demoralizing , just shit in life and my own stagnation has caused me to not really value life recently , I am what the buzzword retards on tiktok would call "low inhibition". Nothing in life is really worth doing anything for at the moment and i kinda just want to give up and LDAR at this point , i am so dopamine fried from porn and other stimuli like food and video games that nothing feels like anything anymore .Even basic things as hot showers feel empty and void . I don't see any value in doing things beyond writing and my life has ultimately just come to that point. Even then i have to get into the mood to write , I really don't feel like living a life anymore. I dunno i guess im just kinda done with it. I see other people succeeding in life whilst I still haven't really changed since 2019 , and you can say to just ignore it or go on with your life , but Its not that simple .I have to experience and interact with these people everyday , and i simply don't want that. I don't want to live a life in toil , having no reason to go on but still doing so. On another point I fucking hate social standards and queues , I fucking hate interacting with people who aren't genuine with themselves or others , I fucking hate not being a genuine person around others. I fucking hate the death of social circles in the modern day thanks to the internet , I fucking hate the modern world and its needless complexities and post-modernist exponential culture growth with the internet. I fucking hate alt subcultures and the social desire for you to be in one. All of these things makes interacting with people not even worth it , No pussy is too good to die for ,and no ideology is too correct to be vilified for . This is not a suicide note , and I am not suicidal , I simply just hate the fact that I have to continue being.

 

[Reina]

Cutting doomer sites(like 4chan) and frustrating sunk cost fallacy games(like LoL) out of your life will do wonders. Maybe go out on a nature trail with friends, or explore a city at night. Just cool things like that are really special.

 

[V]

Agreed. Now buy abiotic factor

 

[Bibr]

how about ummmm
changing something in your life then ? Sounds like you're using tiktok (my wild guess), stop it.
>brain fried from porn ? Check this https://read.easypeasymethod.org/
>Feels like achieved nothing for the past 5 years ? How about https://c25k.com/ and then progress to 10k and half marathon. Get on strava or some other fitness app so you can track your progress
There's no easy fix for social problems, but I can assure you that feeling comfy with yourself can help with those too.

Get /fit/ and read books to reduce screen time. For something silly and light there's a series called "What if?" by Randall Munroe. it's literally a bunch of silly ideas worked out by quite smart person. Go for anything that seems remotely interesting for you even if it's nagolbud's book

 

[ThirdyAughtSix]

Cutting doomer sites(like 4chan) and frustrating sunk cost fallacy games(like LoL) out of your life will do wonders. Maybe go out on a nature trail with friends, or explore a city at night. Just cool things like that are really special.

thankfully I don't really do either shit , but its not even about the doomer websites its just life that really hasn't been enjoyable for the time being. Not even just the political world , just my life in general has been kinda annoying and just depressing experiencing. So many people who've i thought were my friends just fucked off from me , and ive been trying to fill that void recently with random things like complusively buying things and doing other shit. But thats not even the entire problem , everything I like has been going to shit and i kinda have no refuge when I just want to do my own thing. Also hanging out with people has become a chore rather than something i enjoy , and i actively avoid when people contact me , and I generally dread having to interact with people in my life. Life really just hasn't been hitting like it used to .

 

[Khastle]

thankfully I don't really do either shit , but its not even about the doomer websites its just life that really hasn't been enjoyable for the time being. Not even just the political world , just my life in general has been kinda annoying and just depressing experiencing. So many people who've i thought were my friends just fucked off from me , and ive been trying to fill that void recently with random things like complusively buying things and doing other shit. But thats not even the entire problem , everything I like has been going to shit and i kinda have no refuge when I just want to do my own thing. Also hanging out with people has become a chore rather than something i enjoy , and i actively avoid when people contact me , and I generally dread having to interact with people in my life. Life really just hasn't been hitting like it used to .

Damn bro, what's your plan going forward then?

 

[Steve_The]

One cold winter's day, a number of porcupines huddled together quite closely in order through their mutual warmth to prevent themselves from being frozen. But they soon felt the effect of their quills on one another, which made them again move apart. Now when the need for warmth once more brought them together, the drawback of the quills was repeated so that they were tossed between two evils, until they had discovered the proper distance from which they could best tolerate one another. Thus the need for society which springs from the emptiness and monotony of men's lives, drives them together; but their many unpleasant and repulsive qualities and insufferable drawbacks once more drive them apart. The mean distance which they finally discover, and which enables them to endure being together, is politeness and good manners. Whoever does not keep to this, is told in England to ‘keep his distance’. By virtue thereof, it is true that the need for mutual warmth will be only imperfectly satisfied, but on the other hand, the prick of the quills will not be felt. Yet whoever has a great deal of internal warmth of his own will prefer to keep away from society in order to avoid giving or receiving trouble or annoyance.    

—Schopenhauer (1851) Parerga and Paralipome

 

[ThirdyAughtSix]

Damn bro, what's your plan going forward then?

Honestly just writing for the time being is really whats been keeping me going , all of my projects are worth writing and none are near completion . Writing is only my real passion and most other things I get either bored of , or just fuck off from.

 

[Khastle]

Honestly just writing for the time being is really whats been keeping me going , all of my projects are worth writing and none are near completion . Writing is only my real passion and most other things I get either bored of , or just fuck off from.

Hey, my man, that's a great hobby to have and get yourself invested in. I hope you make something of it and for it to help you get your mind off these negative thoughts, and turn that energy into something positive for yourself.

 

[spooky_heejin]

I see other people succeeding in life whilst I still haven't really changed since 2019

A bully of mine became a nuclear engineer on submarines in the Navy after high school while I'm still at home playing video games and eating milky way bars every day.

having no reason to go on but still doing so.

The only reason to live is to have kids. A man's terminal goal in life is to procreate. When you remove that option from a man we become a shell of what we should be.

No pussy is too good to die for ,and no ideology is too correct to be vilified for

Based.

 

[ThirdyAughtSix]

The only reason to live is to have kids. A man's terminal goal in life is to procreate. When you remove that option from a man we become a shell of what we should be.

Yep , only real copes I have are that my writings will be passed down to people who enjoy it

A bully of mine became a nuclear engineer on submarines in the Navy after high school while I'm still at home playing video games and eating milky way bars every day.

The biggest cope people like to say is that people socially ostracized will somehow get a high position in society. This is pretty fucking stupid for quite alot of reasons , main one being that people who are socially ostracized will be unable to form connections with other people and won't have a chance of getting high prestige jobs.

 

[spooky_heejin]

Yep , only real copes I have are that my writings will be passed down to people who enjoy it

The biggest cope people like to say is that people socially ostracized will somehow get a high position in society. This is pretty fucking stupid for quite alot of reasons , main one being that people who are socially ostracized will be unable to form connections with other people and won't have a chance of getting high prestige jobs.

Do you write books or something?

 

[ThirdyAughtSix]

Do you write books or something?

thats the main plan for the time being , unless i find another cope that i find more enjoyable

 

[spooky_heejin]

thats the main plan for the time being , unless i find another cope that i find more enjoyable

That's awesome. What is it about?

 

[ThirdyAughtSix]

That's awesome. What is it about?

I have a few series's im writing at the moment but the main one im focusing on is a semi sci fi about humans evolving and developing culture based on the harsh climate of their world , i don't want to reveal too much about it atm but it does deal with genetic determinism as a concept in the story.

 

[MemoryHead 記念頭部]

i feel that same ever since 2024 started. long, involved story, but the first step to fix it is to want to fix it.

 

[bandolerofuzz]

I am what the buzzword retards on tiktok would call "low inhibition".

TikTok is garbo, jsut don't use it.
I felt the same way as you, and being very clear minded, I think that picking a hobbie or something to care about helps putting some meaning on life. Do you do anything apart of browsing the sewer of modern internet?